Not Going to Make It

Ever tried. Ever failed. No matter. Try again. Fail again. Fail better. ~ Samuel Beckett

 

 

We must accept finite disappointment, but we must never lose infinite hope. ~ Martin Luther King

 

 

Life, however hard, is preferable to the alternative. ~ Aesop

 

 

These quotes are borrowed from a blogger that I follow.  In fact he is the one who put it out there to try writing a 365 blog (did that, still doing it...) Anyway, as I was reading his blog and reading these quotes they spoke to me.  While they do not give me license to not feel bad about not reaching my goal, they give me reassurance that other people have failed AND that failing is not so bad that I dig myself into a deep hole and can't see the light again. 

Here are the facts...

• First of June I was 7 pounds from reaching my goal of losing 39 pounds
• I gave myself false freedom of "I have time." and then was on the maintain mode
• July came and I gained 6 pounds
• I got rid of all my big clothes and bought some new ones 3-4 sizes smaller
• I lost just about 25 inches off my body
• My wedding ring is too big and I have to wear a guard so it does not slide off
• I am now 13 pounds from the goal
• I have exercised every week (except 2) since late December, at least once a week
• My family and friends are totally supportive and amazing!

Here are the feelings...

• I feel that I failed
• I feel that I can pick myself back up
• I feel that I can see the light at the end of the tunnel
• I feel that I am not a bad person

Here is what I learned...

• I like routines
• I do well with routines
• I made some serious life changes
• Exercise is now a part of my life 
• I like talking to people about exercise; running and work out ideas

Here is what I observed during these past 8 months...

• People treat me differently with less weight on my body
• I act and feel differently with less weight on my body

 Here I go on to the next four months.  I know that at the end of 2010 I will be able to feel good about the weight that was lost and not the weight that was gained.